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Saturday, 7 January 2017

NOTHING EVER CHANGED


Though the heart is relieved and the burden that clogged smashed into shards like the windscreen of a third world Japanese contraption in a less than tragic car accident, there is still an empty void that feels like there is need for it to be filled. There is hope for a better tomorrow. In a nutshell optimism, even in the face of nonfeasance means that there is a drive that will keep the tempo thump.


The truth is that the more things change in life the more they remain the same. We all struggle to get an inkling about what our tomorrow will be. As we do, there is this volatility that is the life we live. At some point, we cease to be in love with our jobs, life itself, the house we live in, the environment and all the fanfare that you can ever think of. You are in a state of Armageddon. Whether it is personal, societal, economic or filial, there are moments in life when there seems to be no brouhaha at all.


When the year blossomed, I remember being woken up by the popping sounds of firecrackers that marshalled a new era in many ways. I remember looking through the window as the whizzing whistles and the thunderous thuds rented the night sky into a sparkle that is usually rare.  The bright flash was nostalgic as it was glittering the sphere, I felt that I should have gone to be part of the new dawn and celebrate with the others in the merriment but the zeal could not evanesce. It was really a delectable spectacle. It was dazzling and amazing as an illuminating giant with the inscription ‘2017’ faded away in the moonless night.


Either way, I remember meeting a former high school buddy who works for a certain non-governmental organisation in Karen on the eve of new year and I realized that nothing ever changes. Dude has remained the same.


He is still the lanky dude with so much to tell, stale jokes, and nothing looks promising in him. He was headed for a showdown with an alumnus somewhere in Jamhuri estate to cross over the year along Ngong Road (He later told me they went to Space Lounge but the beer price was exaggerated they had to chuck). I loved that I was doing things man solo. Yeah! I wanted to mark the day alone because I have never. So, I went to a club called Ricoz at the heart of downtown Nairobi. A place I was introduced to by a colleague who was also introduced by a certain bugger who is an alumnus of my former campus. He told me when he wants to have some me time, he finds his way to this sin city that is renowned for a major slack. Those who you interact with in this place don’t feel a tinge of scuzzy that the air surround this place is.


I believe I am the decent types of people who are never in a hurry to quench their libido once there is an avalanche of twilight girls. In Ricoz, you are spoilt of choice when it comes to the type you want. The only hindrance is that you may take quite some time to get a lanky lady, with a sexy derriere, a bewitching buxom bosom and the despicable smile that may twitch the lecherous urge in the gonads to feel like bursting because they have seen the appetizer. Once one spots you, she will grab your am saying ‘kuja ntakufanyia poa leo.’


Watching football was nice. Once in a while I would sneak to go find out if one who did fit the description of the lass I had thought of would show up. Yes, I am a man, and when you have downed some tots of cheap liquor because the pay was so frothy that month, you feel like finding something to cheer you up. Going to the urinals hoping to bump into her so that you can ease the load is what the minds wants, but the finances and the body does not feel it is right. It’s all about objectification and the primal urges when the blood flows from the brain to the equatorial region you find yourself thinking like a horse on Viagra.


Yet for someone like me whose vowed never to touch a lady of the night, it was quite easy to think of football again. My team Chelsea was having a field day. There is some form of guilt that comes with seeking the services of a hoe. The risk, the truth is that there is that someone who will see you and he will not let the cat out of the bag soon. Then one day, you will be astounded by the tale of you as a person who is after the services of a prostitute, yet you had only gone to watch soccer. I guess I was just feeling a little bit lost and lonely. Tinder was not working out and my amor had gone MIA again.


So I went and ordered a hard drink and a soda to reduce the ukali. I sat at a corner where I had a good view of the telly.  I barely finished my ‘’ka quarter’’. In fact, I left it half way when what I had intended for came to an end. I religiously took the exit even though there were those ladies who wanted to grab me to go and quench their paper urge yet I knew that if I had carried excess cash, there was bound to be temptation to go with one. However, I detest the oblong body shapes of many and inappropriate touching the ladies give men. I don’t think I want to go to a place like that. Unless things are tight and I need to kill the sober tendency, it’s just a lure to peccadillo. By 21hrs I was already in the house hoping to start the new year by doing some little reading. It’s good to be ethical even when faced with temptations right!


Well, I finally managed to change my job location and role. The new role has been quite slow. Albeit, this is just a déjà vu. Am back to the place where I started with. So, the process of adjusting has not been intricate given that there are peeps I already knew. The new environment is quite serene and away from the foul smell that is the ostracized Gikomba by the city gentry. Uptown deluxe it is, it’s a role without much sweating. Sometimes I wish I was given a desk at the brokerage wing, even as an unpaid employee. Then again, there I never a need to rush. You get there at some point. If you don’t, one door will open with full force and you have just to accept it.


Hasta La Vista Baby,


[Picture Source: Google Images]


PS: I rewatched Terminator and there is that point where Terminator tells the villain ‘Hasta La vista Baby.’ Ain’t it funny.
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