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If this blog has become a struggle as I currently envisage
my candour as a demurred grapnel at the onset of anchorage. This is because I
have been sluggish to read any books and writing on a daily basis is now farfetched.
Coming from a relatively middle class background, I have
somehow developed deep feelings of inferiority and inadequacy. They
decapitate my ambition sometimes much to my blogs chagrin because it has good
content but no readers.
There is one kid I read about on the dailies but I have
forgotten his name who kept his manuscript undisclosed until that point in time
when he was published. My blog is still under such wraps until that point I
will get a good designer to redo it and acquire a sensible domain name having
maximized on effective search engine optimization or advertising on the social
media platforms or the dominant search engines.
But hey! While I am not doing great in terms of the force
I had started with in terms of writing, I can aptly say that just like whiskey,
the more it ages and matures, the better I have become. When I consider the far
that I have reached, I am no longer doubtful that it is something deep that
drives me to do that which am doing. Money may be a major motivation but it
ceases being a compelling force on my part. There is something about
brilliance; it can never be replaced no matter what. If you are good, you are.
But I also am sure that with hard work, the sky is the limit. Like I only spent
say three or four months getting to know about graphic design and alas, while I
may not be as creative and imaginative as some of those designs I admire, I can
avidly say that the fruits of my labour have been partly achieved. Sometimes
taking the initiative to learn on your own is rewarding even though the
severity is what most cannot condone because learning something on YouTube or
textbook and executing it can be a challenging endeavour.
Sometimes I wish I could have been a master orator,
someone who can talk and capture the attention of an audience using banal
anecdotes told in a passionate appeal, telling unmatched punch lines and with
strong transitions executed smoothly with a vocal delivery that has a message that the audience is convinced of and will
take with them. I want to get to that point where I can calmly adjust my
delivery depending on how my audience engages with my material while on stage
or on any other worthy platform. There
are times when I ponder how I will engage an audience, by getting them to
laugh, cheer, gasp, or have any other emotional reaction. Since it usually
takes time to get there, I am willing to patiently wait even if it means it
will never see me do it while still alive. God forbid though! If it comes when
am no longer in existence, then my lingering ghosts will be proud of what I did
that is if I may never get to have children.
Oh! I know children make parents want to
live to see them grow. I want my children to have a life that will not only be fulfilling
but also worth living. Since I cannot deliver and provide that which I want for
them, I will still give the marriage business a wide berth. It’s practical. Why
should I let the mother and the child suffer because I cannot provide. I am not
going to risk having a child. Not sooner. But again, no prospective woman is in
mind. The one I had in mind is evasive and that is what I want. It takes me
away from the troubles of thinking about someone else. She thinks I am
unpredictable yet am as ordinary as the random Joe.
Ideally, women can't believe we men are so unobservant. This
is aptly the reason why most people who get involved in accidents are men. Research
shows that we are more a product of our biology than the victims of social
stereotypes. We are different because our brain is wired differently. This
causes us to perceive the world in different ways and have different values and
priorities. Which could be the reason why the woman I am pursuing and I usually
spend too much thinking about may find some of the very mundane things I
intimate to her very fallacious.
'It's obvious that women are smarter than men. Think
about it - diamonds are a girl's best friend; man's best friend is a dog. '
Joan Rivers
That was just a by-the-way. Onto more important matters
now. How good it feels to know that beyond the
shadow of the doubt I have, the information, strategies, philosophies, and
skills that I have gained as far could assist any one of these people I envisage
to indulge in empowering themselves to make the changes they desire most!
A
flood of images and emotions will flow over me when I reach that point in time
in life. I will have attained self-actualization,
which some think has to do with having financial freedom or amassing vast
wealth and assets which I cannot deny I am also in pursuit of, but the most
important aspect is leaving an indelible mark in the hearts of people so that
they will profess of how you aided them in overcoming one or two hurdles
bestowed by mother nature.
Yet most people have no idea of the
giant capacity we can immediately command when we focus all of our resources on
mastering a single area of our lives. Controlled focus is like a laser beam
that can cut through anything that seems to be stopping you. I
wish I knew this earlier on in life to sharpen my skills so that they are at
that level where they can no longer be flaccid.
When we focus consistently on
improvement in any area, we develop unique distinctions on how to make that
area better. Each of us has a talent, a gift, our own bit of genius just
waiting to be tapped and harnessed to change the way humanity has envisaged
itself.
As a matter of fact, I decided that
somehow I must contribute in some way that would live on long after I was gone. I'm
constantly figuring out how to communicate this knowledge with people in ways
that truly empower them to improve their mental, emotional, physical, and
financial destinies.
And I will succeed because I have
understood the power of a truly committed decision that when acted upon, no
matter what the conditions, on a continuous basis will eventually bring back
the intended results.
Deciding to commit myself to long-term
results, rather than short-term fixes, is as important as any decision I have
made in my lifetime. Failing to do this can cause not only result in massive
financial or societal pain, but sometimes even the ultimate personal pain. In that regard, I raised my
standards, backed them up with new beliefs, and implemented the strategies I
know I must.
This post cannot be complete without the mention that I
have many posts that are hanging and need to be acted upon like yesterday. They
somehow make me feel bad because I usually never plan prior to doing that which
I am supposed to be doing. I am so full of procrastination. More than ten posts
are still hanging which was not the intention of this blog.
When I started, I was very pessimistic about life and all
that has to do with making in general. But as I progress, I am fully aware that
courage and confidence will reinvent the person in me to achieve unmatched
potential in life if well moderated so that it never reeks of arrogance.
However, I am poignant that I will get there. I am not going to be chasing
after nothing in particular with matters concerning life. Neither will I be
betrothed to societal folly of peers herd mentality.
HASTA LA VISTA BABY.
[Picture Source: My Own]
[Picture Source: My Own]
